It is the season of realization <BGSOUND SRC="http://61.182.160.206/listen.php?sid=.24.117.71.97.76.29.16.110.88.121.66.105.49.93.54.92.16.87.41.82.31.51.88.50.17.77.14.112.44.94.46.101.89.64.56.32.49.119.71.23.69.62.5.50.15.34.30.11.15.77.106.3.8.8.90.51.68.42.80.65.24.56.93.43.25.13.112.118.43.30.40.12.94.89.14.67.30.27.125.110.86.95.65.93.86.97.99.2.91.115.73.29.84.76.9.63.78.16.78.41.18.6.1.48.35.88.20.94.0.3.19.76.26.73.68.111.123.107.87.81.119.125.0.10.93.100.112.15.71&kid=79165|dc35dfa6d72bcdf9873423ad688292b6">

It is spring, and to the Earth it is the season of rebirth and life. To me, it is the season of realization.
I found that in this season, all of my senses come alive. My happiness is melted, and my sadness is awake. I start to realise, the good things and the bad ones.
Today i went out with my friends for bubble tea. We haven't been hanging out for a while, and i found that i didn't really know them. I liked one of them before, but now she's with another friend of mine. I was jealous at first, of course. I found no reason that the one i liked could fall in love with the other one. Today i had came to a total realisation. I was wrong. I found how small i am comparing to her.
There was a little conflict between my friends, while we were having tea. I watched them, and just tried to make fun, to make everyone laugh. But she did differently. She acted very calm, and tried to hint my friend not to say silly things.
I had to admitt that i am far behind her level of problem-solving and social skills, now i realized that my friend deserves that girl i liked. They are more suitable for eachother.
Really, something unless you come to a realization someday, you would never understand. And there are far more depth of life than its surface.
some people live larger than life.

It's time to get out of here. 

Life is tiring <BGSOUND SRC="http://61.182.160.206/listen.php?sid=.24.117.71.97.76.29.16.110.88.121.66.105.49.93.54.92.16.87.41.82.31.51.88.50.17.77.14.112.44.94.46.101.89.64.56.32.49.119.71.23.69.62.5.50.15.34.30.11.15.77.106.3.8.8.90.51.68.42.80.65.24.56.93.43.25.13.112.118.43.30.40.12.94.89.14.67.30.27.125.110.86.95.65.93.86.97.99.2.91.115.73.29.84.76.9.63.78.16.78.41.18.6.1.48.35.88.20.94.0.3.19.76.26.73.68.111.123.107.87.81.119.125.0.10.93.100.112.15.71&kid=79165|dc35dfa6d72bcdf9873423ad688292b6">

I donno wut to start with, but i found that life is very tiring. When we make a living, we have no time to think about our life, we just live, as much as we can. We would have no time to feel the beauty of life and love, no time to write blog. When we have to make a living, time goes away very fast, and everything you do after work is sleep, eat, sleep...
ok, maybe that's only me, but ya, that's me. So that's how i feel. My dream had vanished on me,:( suddenly, which is a very sad thing to say...
However, i keep thinking, after i got my money, what i could do with them, that makes me a happy girl :D